We promised. And it’s actually still not broken.
I guess this is just a part of who I am. Unremitting hope.
It’s pretty tiring though… to be let down so many times.
I pray. Let today be the last day of my deficiency.
Being alone so far far away from home really has brought me to the brinks of insanity. I let It take over me; consumed my self-esteem and occupied my thoughts of good judgement. I started to call it an It; foolishly succumbed to its control.
Because behavior forms and controls more successfully the mind than the reverse, after a few weeks it became a hopeless habit. The obvious answer to breaking a habit is: “encourage and motivate yourself.”
Puts me in greater despair that I had to realize what a helpless being I was. I was a person who lacked motivation. A dependent person who couldn’t stand up tall on her own feet.
It was who I was… all past now.
Starting today I’m taking baby steps……. Awareness is always a good start.
I need a friend like this one.
People think that I’ve recently dyed my hair because of this photo… it’s actually the lighting effect :b. I should really dye my hair this color though.
Finally?… I’m not a 100% sure yet, but I have a good feeling. :)
Everything and everyone is so cold here… and everything and everyone is so distracted by materialistic things. Everyone is totally obsessed with shaping only his or her outer beauty… so distracted that they can’t even realize the stench of their rotting souls.
A lot of women in their twenties think it is okay to “date” older men in their forties and fifties because they’ll be compensated with Hermes and Chanel. I was warned multiple times to never be fooled by young, good-looking men who drive nice cars because they probably don’t even have a penny in their pockets. So where did they get their Maserati or Porsche? Of course from their rich girlfriends, in their fifties, that often come to their “workplace” (Wiki “Host and Hostess clubs).
Trust me, getting your eyes and nose done isn’t even considered as plastic surgery anymore. It is now set as the average norm—only in this society?
Am I the only one that is shocked that everyone is starting to look the same?! Does it shock anyone else that people here think it’s obvious to be in at least three relationships at a time?!
Really? Really? Really…? Help me because I’m starting to lose my sanity.
Huge photo update :b I’ve abandoned my tumblr for way too long… Anyway this was what I was for Halloween! Costume all hand made by me :) I also had a cute bunny tail.
Can’t believe I’m saying this… but I miss school…….